I must admit, I’ve chosen to avoid this topic for quite some time. It wasn’t because I didn’t think this topic was valuable, but rather how transparent I was willing to be online. And, since being vulnerable (something we stress in our life groups) is important, I must follow my own advice.
I’m a hypochondriac. There, I said it. The Merriam-Webster dictionary defines it as this:
unusual or excessive concern about your health : a tendency to fear or imagine that you have illnesses that you do not actually have.
For those of you reading this that cannot relate, I will try my best to explain.
Everyday, I woke up dying. Or so I thought. I then spent the rest of my day trying to talk myself out of whatever condition I was dying of that particular day. The slightest ache or pain often mentally manifested itself into some life threatening ailment. At the core of it, I suppose I had a fear of dying. I had a fear of leaving my family, friends, and everything known to me. I couldn’t wake up and enjoy the day. That was never my first thought. Well, until I found Jesus.
I found comfort and peace in Him. I began trusting His ways. I kept my focus on Him, not on me. See, the devil likes to consume you through what you fear. In my case, it was death and disease. I kept focusing on earthly concerns. I hadn’t set my sites high enough. But then I found these texts.
Luke 12:7- Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
Colossians 3:2-4 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3 For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ, who is your[a] life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
Philipians 4:13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
Romans 12:2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.
2 Corinthians 5:12 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.
These are just a few of the scriptures that helped me. There are many, many more in the Bible. Jesus is our hope, our guide, and Saviour. As soon as I took the focus off of me and put it on Him, my life changed. I don’t fear death anymore. In fact, death marks the arrival of my final destination. My life with Jesus. In His presence. No more suffering. No more pain. In all His glory.
2 Corinthians 10 states to take our thoughts captive. This implies that they go out first in order to be taken captive. And, whenever my thoughts get away from me, I remember to take them captive and trust in the Lord God Almighty and His promises to us.
Be encouraged, much can be overcome!
From time to time, Rev D posts random thoughts about life as a Pastor and Servant of Christ. He has a unique perspective. Blog entries are posted randomly.